Sunday, November 25, 2012
How Things Really Work
Tim Burton made a break in the way things work, and he thinks we have to face them head on now we're supposedly through with the likes of him, though we so aren't.
Being Civil
Ellen DeGeneres really believes other people are more civil in good ways. She'll say she doesn't, but she'll still be vying for that among others, somehow, and seems to trail off on it, quite seriously or in a way that needs attention or fixing...
I'm tired of your playing with me because my mom is not White|Caucasian. Isn't this my whole life? When I try to overcome it, I get ambushed.
Look, stop those messages that are bad. Stop wasting my time. I haven't had much, it seems, or maybe just not enough money.
Look, I don't have a problem. You guys are just being mean and not like making sense. I know, I saw. You think I just have an inherent problem. You're hurting me. STOP! HELP!
I'm tired of your playing with me because my mom is not White|Caucasian. Isn't this my whole life? When I try to overcome it, I get ambushed.
Look, stop those messages that are bad. Stop wasting my time. I haven't had much, it seems, or maybe just not enough money.
Look, I don't have a problem. You guys are just being mean and not like making sense. I know, I saw. You think I just have an inherent problem. You're hurting me. STOP! HELP!
Shopping
$10 Mouse
$10 Keyboard
$50 2-Pack Air Purifier link
up to @ $15 Good Nail Polish
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$1 Nail Scissors
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Ooh, that's too much. I'd better not get the air purifiers. So, it's $144.
$10 Keyboard
$50 2-Pack Air Purifier link
up to @ $15 Good Nail Polish
$1 Nail Polish Remover
$1 Nail Scissors
$25 Contact Lenses
$3 Cleaning Spray
$7 Eyeliner
$5 Glitter Eye Shadow link NEW $5.00 @ Wal-Mart
$4 Waterproof Earplugs
$10 pads
$5 teen female chewable vitamins
$5 hair, skin, nails pills
$20 coat hanger
Subscriptions
$10 People (like an issue every week, I think)
$6 Flickr
$7 At Some Point Ad-Free for My Forum @ ProBoards
___
$194
Ooh, that's too much. I'd better not get the air purifiers. So, it's $144.
Almost thought ... Forgotten Post: Eating Domino's
Muy Leftovers
Pan Pepperoni Extra Cheese Extra Sauce
Cheese Bread Garlic Sauce
Lava Cake
Pan Pepperoni Extra Cheese Extra Sauce
Cheese Bread Garlic Sauce
Lava Cake
Problems
I don't know why people are digging into my life in private in insulting, dirty ways, thinking I want to really, privately, secretly want to be stimulated in a perverted fashion.
The theme has been going ... elaborate plans have been made to carefully control and monitor things in my life that I can't control. To relay messages that others I know are now more worthy than me, people who have been uncontrollably snide|rude|snippy|hurtful with me.
Also, no one cares if I'm not comfortable.
I better spill the beans. I dropped my Wal-Mart card, somehow. I got 2 coats at the mall. I lost my credit card, and I'm guessing someone in my home took it. I guess I have to keep my cards where I can see them or keep track of them. So, I got some pink pants, and now I can't find them. I had given them to my mom to get hemmed, and the lady was out for awhile. I am pretty sure I got them back last week. I just did my laundry, and I don't see them, anywhere.
I've grown up wanting privacy, but I feel people have acted like they know more than me and that means I'm worthless. I've also been unhappy, like I wanted a more expensive life.
Also, yesterday, I thought I folded pink pants with a hook, but now I see I have pink pants with a button.
I realized that successful people may cause jealousy, but I don't really believe that. Even people who try to live life like others and not just live out their dreams.
Another problem is I'm feeling smooth parts of my body go into pieces like glitter.
So, I am upset that people are telling me they are the one with hidden strengths. They are getting mad at me for not knowing or something like that. I'm sorry if they've seen twilight or whatever. I hope they get better. They certainly close their wound up from people like me. So, why like cut into me for it?
I'm tired of people saying they are so smart and know everything. They don't even know how to be happy.
I feel kinda like my eyes popped out looking for the pants. My head feels a bit blown up.
I don't have to listen to Helena Bonham Carter and what people think of her towards me now because she is with Tim Burton, who is testing us about maybe he'll marry her and be more disconnected from us.
I was just settling in, and now people are distracting me. What if they distracted you? I don't feel well, quit bothering me just because I haven't showered, yet, today. I'm still tired! Quit bothering me!!! You keep annoying me!
Please stop acting like your so good, even when someone makes a point, like you understand it.
I'm tired of the drama with Ellen DeGerenes punishing me, for nothing. See how you like it? Hm? Oh, she already has that on her show. Still the same thing. '}:{
Look, GIVE A COHERENT ANSWER AND QUIT! Stop complaining about me not living a comfortable life.
I could at any moment have anything jump at me, have some noise in the background that warbles... I'm tired of people with concocted lives taking over everything. They must have some racial problems.
Oh, and you've pretty much let other people seem to make statements of others and threaten to hurt them. Racial statements.
I thought my life was getting better. So, you're complaining about your problems and thrashing my successes like fate. Being picky about my needs.
The theme has been going ... elaborate plans have been made to carefully control and monitor things in my life that I can't control. To relay messages that others I know are now more worthy than me, people who have been uncontrollably snide|rude|snippy|hurtful with me.
Also, no one cares if I'm not comfortable.
I better spill the beans. I dropped my Wal-Mart card, somehow. I got 2 coats at the mall. I lost my credit card, and I'm guessing someone in my home took it. I guess I have to keep my cards where I can see them or keep track of them. So, I got some pink pants, and now I can't find them. I had given them to my mom to get hemmed, and the lady was out for awhile. I am pretty sure I got them back last week. I just did my laundry, and I don't see them, anywhere.
I've grown up wanting privacy, but I feel people have acted like they know more than me and that means I'm worthless. I've also been unhappy, like I wanted a more expensive life.
Also, yesterday, I thought I folded pink pants with a hook, but now I see I have pink pants with a button.
I realized that successful people may cause jealousy, but I don't really believe that. Even people who try to live life like others and not just live out their dreams.
Another problem is I'm feeling smooth parts of my body go into pieces like glitter.
So, I am upset that people are telling me they are the one with hidden strengths. They are getting mad at me for not knowing or something like that. I'm sorry if they've seen twilight or whatever. I hope they get better. They certainly close their wound up from people like me. So, why like cut into me for it?
I'm tired of people saying they are so smart and know everything. They don't even know how to be happy.
I feel kinda like my eyes popped out looking for the pants. My head feels a bit blown up.
I don't have to listen to Helena Bonham Carter and what people think of her towards me now because she is with Tim Burton, who is testing us about maybe he'll marry her and be more disconnected from us.
I was just settling in, and now people are distracting me. What if they distracted you? I don't feel well, quit bothering me just because I haven't showered, yet, today. I'm still tired! Quit bothering me!!! You keep annoying me!
Please stop acting like your so good, even when someone makes a point, like you understand it.
I'm tired of the drama with Ellen DeGerenes punishing me, for nothing. See how you like it? Hm? Oh, she already has that on her show. Still the same thing. '}:{
Look, GIVE A COHERENT ANSWER AND QUIT! Stop complaining about me not living a comfortable life.
I could at any moment have anything jump at me, have some noise in the background that warbles... I'm tired of people with concocted lives taking over everything. They must have some racial problems.
Oh, and you've pretty much let other people seem to make statements of others and threaten to hurt them. Racial statements.
I thought my life was getting better. So, you're complaining about your problems and thrashing my successes like fate. Being picky about my needs.
Eating Domino's
Muy Leftovers
Pan Pepperoni Extra Cheese Extra Sauce
Cheese Bread Garlic Sauce
Lava Cake
Pan Pepperoni Extra Cheese Extra Sauce
Cheese Bread Garlic Sauce
Lava Cake
Behavior
I've always been really nice, it seemed, and somewhat sacrificial yet not overly helping in extraneous matters.
Funny, it seems the likes of Ellen DeGeneres has been infused as though she'd have calculated the answers to concocting a successful family, like your needs are no longer important, since the world has gone so crazy...
Funny, it seems the likes of Ellen DeGeneres has been infused as though she'd have calculated the answers to concocting a successful family, like your needs are no longer important, since the world has gone so crazy...
Problem
Ever since I started watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" again, this season, I've been getting weird messages via the way things on my computer work and noises I hear usually in my house, even with earplugs and a noisemaker on to block out other noises.
Saturday, November 24, 2012
What I Could Have Done
Year 1
1 English II G
2 Geometry G
3 World Geography
4 Freshman Orientation | Civics
5 Biology I H
6 PE I
7 Spanish I
Year 2
1 English III APG
2 Algebra II G
3 Advanced Math APG
4 World History
5 Chemistry I H
6 Biology II
7 Spanish II
Year 3
1 English IV APG
2 Calculus APG
3 American History H
4 Physics H
5 Chemistry II
6 PE II | Health
7 Free Enterprise
College - Loyola University New Orleans - Communications + Reqiured Minor in Religion + Honors
Graduate + work for Disney Junior @ Burbank.
1 English II G
2 Geometry G
3 World Geography
4 Freshman Orientation | Civics
5 Biology I H
6 PE I
7 Spanish I
Year 2
1 English III APG
2 Algebra II G
3 Advanced Math APG
4 World History
5 Chemistry I H
6 Biology II
7 Spanish II
Year 3
1 English IV APG
2 Calculus APG
3 American History H
4 Physics H
5 Chemistry II
6 PE II | Health
7 Free Enterprise
College - Loyola University New Orleans - Communications + Reqiured Minor in Religion + Honors
Graduate + work for Disney Junior @ Burbank.
Shopping
$10 Mouse
$10 Keyboard
$50 2-Pack Air Purifier link
up to @ $15 Good Nail Polish
$1 Nail Polish Remover
$1 Nail Scissors
$25 Contact Lenses
$3 Cleaning Spray
$7 Eyeliner
$5 Glitter Eye Shadow link NEW $5.00 @ Wal-Mart
$4 Waterproof Earplugs
Subscriptions
$10 People (like an issue every week, I think)
$6 Flickr
$7 At Some Point Ad-Free for My Forum @ ProBoards
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$154
Maybe, have my dad get me:
a loud fan to block out noise (I already have a noisemaker.)
$10 Keyboard
$50 2-Pack Air Purifier link
up to @ $15 Good Nail Polish
$1 Nail Polish Remover
$1 Nail Scissors
$25 Contact Lenses
$3 Cleaning Spray
$7 Eyeliner
$5 Glitter Eye Shadow link NEW $5.00 @ Wal-Mart
$4 Waterproof Earplugs
Subscriptions
$10 People (like an issue every week, I think)
$6 Flickr
$7 At Some Point Ad-Free for My Forum @ ProBoards
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$154
Maybe, have my dad get me:
a loud fan to block out noise (I already have a noisemaker.)
Invasion!
Isn't it funny how Tim Burton is intruding with Helena Bonham Carter and his daughter with some people, like me and sometimes my family, but not others?
I also got wind and Johnny Depp literally think they "are" actually in fact Early Boom and that people like my dad with young wives in their time are Late Boom, when in fact that is untrue. [|:|
Now, I feel they want to attack someone else I know. That's bad. Can someone stop it! Help! Right now! Post on my forum in the Help! section!
So, they like to literally connect Autistic ideas without caring like who the ideas are connected to.
...
Oh, and if you didn't know, it's a popular inclination to want Tim Burton to be Autistic, which I mean young people have blasted out that he is online and made that topic acutely, immensely popular and important, over a long period of time.
I also got wind and Johnny Depp literally think they "are" actually in fact Early Boom and that people like my dad with young wives in their time are Late Boom, when in fact that is untrue. [|:|
Now, I feel they want to attack someone else I know. That's bad. Can someone stop it! Help! Right now! Post on my forum in the Help! section!
So, they like to literally connect Autistic ideas without caring like who the ideas are connected to.
...
Oh, and if you didn't know, it's a popular inclination to want Tim Burton to be Autistic, which I mean young people have blasted out that he is online and made that topic acutely, immensely popular and important, over a long period of time.
Caring What Others Say
I noticed no one cares what I say nor what others like my mom say that have to do with me in a good way because I'm half Chinese Indonesian.
Functioning
It's funny you'd think that some people do things unbeknowingly and with care and effort, but others get whatever they need yet are mean to others.
Waiting for the Answer
I do not agree with letting me off not knowing the answer then suddenly grouping me with people in ways I don't like.
I mean, like, what I was considered before is suddenly the total opposite. I'm thinking of like being from the South but having a dad from the North.
I mean, like, what I was considered before is suddenly the total opposite. I'm thinking of like being from the South but having a dad from the North.
Website Update
Advice
When I jog too much when I'm tired, my stomach gets bloated, but when I do core workouts my stomach deflates, settles, and quells.
When I jog too much when I'm tired, my stomach gets bloated, but when I do core workouts my stomach deflates, settles, and quells.
I'm eating Dominos.
Pepperoni pan pizza with extra cheese and extra sauce, cheese bread and garlic sauce, and the chocolate lava cakes.
3*
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Bothered
So, something that has been bothering me was things I did that connect. I'm worried. Like, I posted myself in front of a lot of parked cars where we were. In my last YouTube videos, I looked like I had the illusion of lots of little dots on the side of my head, like they were wounds. I looked stitched together. I just realized about the movie Lilo & Stitch. Some people with tan skin look more stitched together like dolls. ... So, I got really upset. I had something coming to me, the umph to lead into cleaning my room, but it seemed to come to me after I got upset. I felt like other people were stimulated in a bad way but not like how I felt then. I just couldn't stop. I went out later to iron and couldn't control myself. I was so mad at how I felt all my life, especially when opportunity to feel good about myself in a new way was robbed. I think it's because something happened, the thing when I was 11 that's on my website.
So, I'm concerned about that and something else I thought that happened. It seems to have greatly affected others. So, I wanted to talk about it on my blog. I should probably make categories or something of interesting posts. So, I was in bed with the fear I'd turn into a bunch of little wounds. I was worried about my relationship with others.
Oh yes, I made a post on my website about when I get upset. I wasn't trying to hurt anyone. It was just like dealing with a mistake of my functioning or how I was functioning at the time. I don't know, but I think I'm getting over it but am sad this unfortunately happened.
Also, when I do something, other people get blamed. They do it to make a scene because they are hysterical they didn't do it. They just do it like animals without thinking like in a hoard.
So, I hope it gets better. That was really bad. Now, what will I think of my clean room? I figured it out. I changed blogs when I got mad, too, and it was a good move but not a glorious one.
So, I hope that this desists...
So, I'm concerned about that and something else I thought that happened. It seems to have greatly affected others. So, I wanted to talk about it on my blog. I should probably make categories or something of interesting posts. So, I was in bed with the fear I'd turn into a bunch of little wounds. I was worried about my relationship with others.
Oh yes, I made a post on my website about when I get upset. I wasn't trying to hurt anyone. It was just like dealing with a mistake of my functioning or how I was functioning at the time. I don't know, but I think I'm getting over it but am sad this unfortunately happened.
Also, when I do something, other people get blamed. They do it to make a scene because they are hysterical they didn't do it. They just do it like animals without thinking like in a hoard.
So, I hope it gets better. That was really bad. Now, what will I think of my clean room? I figured it out. I changed blogs when I got mad, too, and it was a good move but not a glorious one.
So, I hope that this desists...
Dream
The peak of my last dream was me lying down lumped over listening to music from the Revolutionary War and feeling quite stimulated and imagining being rubbed.
Before, I was stuck, at the top of an elevator. I had said wow, up north, I have not been in buildings this high, lately. I was with a thin, like Jewish boy, who was rather slick with a big nose and a sculpted head and figure. Then the elevator was over the building. It felt exciting, like something I'd felt. We went in and I felt good and it went down.
There was a dream before where I was withdrawing from Humanities in high school because I never attended class. Seems like a dream I've had before. Then, in math, I got a 93 but was given an F and not a WF because then it would be getting off dirt cheap. I was thinking of the math teacher rubbing my side, which didn't feel like how I feel right now, like in my other dream being rubbed. She knew and said something.
There was another part to the dream which was a bit daring when I was in a library.
I had a 1st of 3 dreams.
So, with the music, I kept going to pick that one. There was a good one on, like Elayison, and it was turned off. I know that's not how it's spelled. It was kinda bubbly and like with special effects.
so, I was curled up in a ball and having trouble against something. I was being carried by a female and then by a female eating who proceeded to feed me. I imagined her eyes not in a stimulating way crossed and the pupils were kinda tiny. They seemed cut off. There was a part I had to pick a logo and it was something with eyes or a face with a black line down the middle of white, though it seemed colored, like hot pink. I felt like I wasn't being stimulated readily but airily put off, like that was more stimulating.
Before, I was stuck, at the top of an elevator. I had said wow, up north, I have not been in buildings this high, lately. I was with a thin, like Jewish boy, who was rather slick with a big nose and a sculpted head and figure. Then the elevator was over the building. It felt exciting, like something I'd felt. We went in and I felt good and it went down.
There was a dream before where I was withdrawing from Humanities in high school because I never attended class. Seems like a dream I've had before. Then, in math, I got a 93 but was given an F and not a WF because then it would be getting off dirt cheap. I was thinking of the math teacher rubbing my side, which didn't feel like how I feel right now, like in my other dream being rubbed. She knew and said something.
There was another part to the dream which was a bit daring when I was in a library.
I had a 1st of 3 dreams.
So, with the music, I kept going to pick that one. There was a good one on, like Elayison, and it was turned off. I know that's not how it's spelled. It was kinda bubbly and like with special effects.
so, I was curled up in a ball and having trouble against something. I was being carried by a female and then by a female eating who proceeded to feed me. I imagined her eyes not in a stimulating way crossed and the pupils were kinda tiny. They seemed cut off. There was a part I had to pick a logo and it was something with eyes or a face with a black line down the middle of white, though it seemed colored, like hot pink. I felt like I wasn't being stimulated readily but airily put off, like that was more stimulating.
My Forum
I added a forum. 3:}
link
It's listed on the side of my blog. :p
It's because it's easier to see comments. ;|
Well, it's also because if I got a lot of comments, you couldn't see them all in a list, as far as I know, unless you went in and actually subscribed to my blog, on Google.
It would be nice to have a collection of comments to my blog posts, but that could get tedious. I dunno, really. Maybe, it should be even more organized. I mean, I want anyone to be able to comment.
link
It's listed on the side of my blog. :p
It's because it's easier to see comments. ;|
Well, it's also because if I got a lot of comments, you couldn't see them all in a list, as far as I know, unless you went in and actually subscribed to my blog, on Google.
It would be nice to have a collection of comments to my blog posts, but that could get tedious. I dunno, really. Maybe, it should be even more organized. I mean, I want anyone to be able to comment.
Website Update
Proper exercising can quell you, over a period of time, and settle you, even right away...
Making Moves
My dad seems to be trying to be snide with my mom, like stimulate her in inappropriate ways for having an attitude but in an okay way, while everyone else he lets drift by uncontrollably his entire life.
So, you all trying to "make a move" on my dad like you "had it in you?" I mean in general, but I guess it would upset me if everyone I talked to rubbed it in. It's just something I like to notice. I mean, what else is there?
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So, you all trying to "make a move" on my dad like you "had it in you?" I mean in general, but I guess it would upset me if everyone I talked to rubbed it in. It's just something I like to notice. I mean, what else is there?
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Website Update
link
Counseling
When you're bombarded with attacks, that's when you think aggressively, and you don't know where it came from.
Advice
If you do your core workouts, it'll energize you to do a run. I think core workouts often include the entire core. It also engages the legs and arms and neck.
Not skipping meals and getting enough sleep will maintain|boost your metabolism.
Counseling
When you're bombarded with attacks, that's when you think aggressively, and you don't know where it came from.
Advice
If you do your core workouts, it'll energize you to do a run. I think core workouts often include the entire core. It also engages the legs and arms and neck.
Not skipping meals and getting enough sleep will maintain|boost your metabolism.
Website Update
If you use money from your parents, get your toiletries at the beginning of the month for @ $20. Get your subscriptions for maybe $40|$50. Maybe, get your parents to get odd things like a bigger bookshelf or something like that or get a bigger one from the start if you knew you'd use it. You also need like an air purifier and cleaning stuff. I have Febreze. Then, you have the remainder of the money to get clothes. Get a matching outfit so you're not always in blue jeans. Like, most shirts look good in colored pants, these days. Hollister has some good velvet pants at a decent price. Get the warmest jacket and a cloth coat. You can get fancier ones, next year. I take my pants to get hemmed, somewhere, for $5. Any hemmed article of clothing is $5. So, if you cash in money, cash the difference to get back like $1 bills. Don't worry so much about pajamas. I guess collect up undergarments.
Website Update
Advice
Saturday, 2012-11-24 - Have a backup mouse and keyboard, in case yours breaks. Also, get an extra extension chord for headphones.
Saturday, 2012-11-24 - Have a loud fan and earplugs to block out noise. I've only had foam and waterproof earplugs.
Saturday, 2012-11-24
- Get a real computer for your room. I wish I had an Apple, but mine was a good deal and works well, HP.
- Get a TV for @ $200 and get a cable installed for $30|$70? and for @ $40+ a recorder.
- Check your house. Get a floor lamp with stage lights. If you play the piano|electric keyboard, set it up in some area of the house without a window, possibly your room. If you just need it to sing and are tight for some reason, get a small one. Just get a Nook or Pad for reading. If you have old books, put it on your bookshelf or store it away in boxes in a corner|against the wall. Make sure you have a full sized 2 seat sofa, preferably, with a good cushion to lie your head on. I guess, if it's rubber you can wipe it. I used to put mine at my computer but not anymore, unsure of the cause. It's the winter, and I don't even need a blanket, anymore, but I need a little pillow. I had an old sofa in my room we got rid of when I was an older teenager, 16. You could even put your keyboard against the wall and set it up like at your desk when you want to play. So, if you get a real piano or do something in the living area, make sure to not have it able so someone can see in so you can put it on YouTube. :) I know I lost time playing the piano in a small house when my brother wanted to watch TV. We had an extra room, but we had toys and tools in it. You'd have to put a carpet under the piano, too, so no one would know it's your house and set up something on the wall. If you're still waiting you can just film your fingers, I guess. So, you'll have your bed. You'll have a sofa. You'll have a TV, which needs to go to one side of the arm so you can lean on the side against the back. You can put the DVD shelf next to the arm. I have my printer on my TV shelf. Put the computer machine next to the TV and computer screen. Get a sturdy table. You can draw on said table by removing the keyboard and maybe set paint out to dry on the TV. I don't see why not, but I haven't done that, yet. Well, you might need to put it on the cardboard pack. Put your supplies in a set of plastic drawers and whatever remaining junk you own. I guess if you don't want to get rid of things put them in boxes and fit them either in your room or an extra space. Hopefully, you don't have many books. Of course, a little shelf would do. I seem to have some extra things. Papers, MCAT material, art canvases and paper. I even tried to save a shelf for library stuff and another for my old music books, which aren't very helpful. My dad saved old ones. I have a pillow chair for my bed. For my clothes, I have a big wire shelf at the foot of my bed. I have drawers under my bed I don't use and a set of drawers. I live in a garage. So, you might even have room to leap around the center of your room.
Saturday, 2012-11-24 - Have a backup mouse and keyboard, in case yours breaks. Also, get an extra extension chord for headphones.
Saturday, 2012-11-24 - Have a loud fan and earplugs to block out noise. I've only had foam and waterproof earplugs.
Saturday, 2012-11-24
- Get a real computer for your room. I wish I had an Apple, but mine was a good deal and works well, HP.
- Get a TV for @ $200 and get a cable installed for $30|$70? and for @ $40+ a recorder.
- Check your house. Get a floor lamp with stage lights. If you play the piano|electric keyboard, set it up in some area of the house without a window, possibly your room. If you just need it to sing and are tight for some reason, get a small one. Just get a Nook or Pad for reading. If you have old books, put it on your bookshelf or store it away in boxes in a corner|against the wall. Make sure you have a full sized 2 seat sofa, preferably, with a good cushion to lie your head on. I guess, if it's rubber you can wipe it. I used to put mine at my computer but not anymore, unsure of the cause. It's the winter, and I don't even need a blanket, anymore, but I need a little pillow. I had an old sofa in my room we got rid of when I was an older teenager, 16. You could even put your keyboard against the wall and set it up like at your desk when you want to play. So, if you get a real piano or do something in the living area, make sure to not have it able so someone can see in so you can put it on YouTube. :) I know I lost time playing the piano in a small house when my brother wanted to watch TV. We had an extra room, but we had toys and tools in it. You'd have to put a carpet under the piano, too, so no one would know it's your house and set up something on the wall. If you're still waiting you can just film your fingers, I guess. So, you'll have your bed. You'll have a sofa. You'll have a TV, which needs to go to one side of the arm so you can lean on the side against the back. You can put the DVD shelf next to the arm. I have my printer on my TV shelf. Put the computer machine next to the TV and computer screen. Get a sturdy table. You can draw on said table by removing the keyboard and maybe set paint out to dry on the TV. I don't see why not, but I haven't done that, yet. Well, you might need to put it on the cardboard pack. Put your supplies in a set of plastic drawers and whatever remaining junk you own. I guess if you don't want to get rid of things put them in boxes and fit them either in your room or an extra space. Hopefully, you don't have many books. Of course, a little shelf would do. I seem to have some extra things. Papers, MCAT material, art canvases and paper. I even tried to save a shelf for library stuff and another for my old music books, which aren't very helpful. My dad saved old ones. I have a pillow chair for my bed. For my clothes, I have a big wire shelf at the foot of my bed. I have drawers under my bed I don't use and a set of drawers. I live in a garage. So, you might even have room to leap around the center of your room.
WHAT
Look, stop telling me I'm bad and not going through why. You just want me to feel submissive ... to "get it." To get what? Stop saying I have an attitude and acting like I'm fat and ugly.
Money Money Money Money
So, people are onto me for my irritations from being mixed race and won't let me go, even after I think I've gotten better but it still is in my past.
I guess you just think I should suffer. I don't think that's right. I guess we're all in a race to the top.
Why does only Lily Rose deserve money ... wait, so do other rich kids. It's just that their parents must worry them.
I guess you just think I should suffer. I don't think that's right. I guess we're all in a race to the top.
Why does only Lily Rose deserve money ... wait, so do other rich kids. It's just that their parents must worry them.
STOP
I'm tired of your fascinations of hurting me literally to come up with an idea. These things are all racist. You're just trying to take away my rightful accomplishments and say that you have the answer right away.
Places
So, in part, you're looking for people with no influence from weird places like the Northeast and Kentucky, it seems? I'm sure there are more problems. It depends on the person, but maybe not. People who move are weird. Well, we moved, and we're not weird. I know Taylor Swift moved to Tennessee, like Miley Cyrus, but Miley Cyrus seems more up class as do I think someone I saw from Kentucky, seemed pretty northern. However, I don't like anywhere in Ohio but the very north and middle. I might like the northwest, but I'm not sure.
Ramblings
I was wondering about the dilemma of kids with parents born in the South and the North. Also, what about L.A., isn't it both? I can't see categorizing New Orleans and Pennsylvania. I can't see categorizing it automatically with L.A.
I understand Florida has a lot of old people and families from the Northeast. I know of a total of well over 13 people from areas like that, other than places like the Midwest and L.A., basically, as well as knowing well people from the dead Northeast who aren't from Florida. I don't know anyone well with parents from Florida. There was this one girl who might be or maybe 2. They were really nice but a bit metallic flesh-wise. I can think of another girl now, and it's kinda the same.
People from L.A. are shy yet have a very strong presence, I've found.
So, there are a lot of families in Florida with parents without a background from Florida, but then again there are and I know they're very serious. They seem kinda like they've melted, though. They are accepted for their booty.
Morally, you'd say me having my background I'd be pretty good as a Floridian, being born here. My mom is Chinese-Indonesian. My aunt is a little crazy and has a daughter but isn't married. She is a young adult, now. I think she got crazy when she was born. I found out she was Italian and comes from a poor family but has a polite yet disagreeable dad, maybe a bit risky for people not from a high standing place. My experience was that it didn't really make good sense, but I think anyone would know that but try not to think about it. He didn't look Italian. His last name is supposedly Italian, but maybe it's not. Maybe, Florida isn't that Italian... My cousin never knew him. I'm not sure why I spent so much of this blog talking about him... :|
I had a friend from San Fransisco when I lived in the New Orleans area. She was really big, a year older, ended up working for Disney in the College program maybe even 2 years. They were poor, and her parents were separated. Her mom had 2 jobs. They had a lot of animals. We were allowed to get a pet, finally, when we moved to the New Orleans area, but, by that time, I didn't beg for one...
So, I understand Tim Burton and Johnny Depp are from L.A. and Florida. They think because they're famous they can be mean to others who aren't all white.
So, my cousin is considered from Florida, I think, and has good connections through her social mom with relatives. I don't really know anyone whose parents moved here right when they were born, maybe my other aunt's husband, not sure if he's the oldest but don't think so...
I guess it's about the connection. I don't like rub my dad's connection with me like that in people's faces.
I'm very mad that people are beginning to distrust me because of their racism for me online.
So, anyway, you are nice to someone from Europe in connection to Florida and L.A. You are nice to someone who lives in Europe with a dad from the U.S. 8|
A funny thing happened to me when I got to my 3rd year of high school. I fasted and got into a hard history class that they said we had to take at our 3rd year and not before but probably after being okay... My friend did it the year before, and there were lots of kids asking questions in class. I didn't get any of the lecture and just didn't feel like reading it. In fact, I had not read a piece of history since age 11.
So, I found that if you sleep and don't skip meals, it will keep your metabolism going. The best time to not eat is when you're busy or relaxing. However, I just posted I had a snack when I woke up. Then, I stayed up and had breakfast. I got mad and bothered, though, I think, not sure, though. I'm bothered, now. Like, yesterday, my legs were a blimp flabbing. I've been having bacon and French toast for breakfast, bacon that's not that cooked ... and syrup on the French toast. Now, my legs are rubbery. I finally did some core workouts and need to do more soon. I took a break because my stomach was tight. Look on YouTube for free workout stations and just add situps, I guess. :| I have a nice video by Jillian Michaels, too, but it's not like out of the blue or something in a way.
So, I don't have anyone to compare to with where I'm from. People just say, oh your dad's from Pennsylvania and Southwestern New York State. I guess it makes people up north really mad they didn't move here. They were supposed to, really, before their kids were born. I go about Florida and get along and am even considered rather native to the area. Well, I guess I can connect to people from Florida, but it's kinda about connecting to your parents. I kinda like to be my own person. I guess you just have to ask me about my experiences in the world. I mean, I guess you like my parents, like to use them against me. I remember we thought we had a good culture but realized that we were like next in line but not as good as the Northeast. I think it was about how fair your mom was. My mom wasn't dark for her race, but she wasn't pasty. I think she was light tan. She's feminine and not like dilapidated. So, people in Florida are about how European they are. I used to walk around Southeastern Florida with my mom at night and in the day. My dad talked to me as a kid, too. I fail to see what is like so different about Lily Rose. It's more about not putting on a front at certain times. Nell Burton must be special, really. You know, I don't agree with denying what I've learned that doesn't have to do with more suburban areas. It's not always about doing unnecessary favors for others, and it's about slowing down and doing what's easiest. It's about family, too, and private time. I just have a window to the world. I like passing my parents in the hall every few days. I know my parents are mad I think about people who are nice to me but then don't like finish it off or are seldom personable to me because maybe I'm stand-off-ish. They keep this in. If Nell Burton lived in L.A., things would be different for her. She seems to have high self-esteem for being Jewish in how people hate Chinese. I just grew up denied being like Pennsylvania. I don't really have anything but my travels and varied heritage. I'm pretty Floridian, but my parents aren't from Florida. I don't know why you wouldn't be if you're from here.
I understand Florida has a lot of old people and families from the Northeast. I know of a total of well over 13 people from areas like that, other than places like the Midwest and L.A., basically, as well as knowing well people from the dead Northeast who aren't from Florida. I don't know anyone well with parents from Florida. There was this one girl who might be or maybe 2. They were really nice but a bit metallic flesh-wise. I can think of another girl now, and it's kinda the same.
People from L.A. are shy yet have a very strong presence, I've found.
So, there are a lot of families in Florida with parents without a background from Florida, but then again there are and I know they're very serious. They seem kinda like they've melted, though. They are accepted for their booty.
Morally, you'd say me having my background I'd be pretty good as a Floridian, being born here. My mom is Chinese-Indonesian. My aunt is a little crazy and has a daughter but isn't married. She is a young adult, now. I think she got crazy when she was born. I found out she was Italian and comes from a poor family but has a polite yet disagreeable dad, maybe a bit risky for people not from a high standing place. My experience was that it didn't really make good sense, but I think anyone would know that but try not to think about it. He didn't look Italian. His last name is supposedly Italian, but maybe it's not. Maybe, Florida isn't that Italian... My cousin never knew him. I'm not sure why I spent so much of this blog talking about him... :|
I had a friend from San Fransisco when I lived in the New Orleans area. She was really big, a year older, ended up working for Disney in the College program maybe even 2 years. They were poor, and her parents were separated. Her mom had 2 jobs. They had a lot of animals. We were allowed to get a pet, finally, when we moved to the New Orleans area, but, by that time, I didn't beg for one...
So, I understand Tim Burton and Johnny Depp are from L.A. and Florida. They think because they're famous they can be mean to others who aren't all white.
So, my cousin is considered from Florida, I think, and has good connections through her social mom with relatives. I don't really know anyone whose parents moved here right when they were born, maybe my other aunt's husband, not sure if he's the oldest but don't think so...
I guess it's about the connection. I don't like rub my dad's connection with me like that in people's faces.
I'm very mad that people are beginning to distrust me because of their racism for me online.
So, anyway, you are nice to someone from Europe in connection to Florida and L.A. You are nice to someone who lives in Europe with a dad from the U.S. 8|
A funny thing happened to me when I got to my 3rd year of high school. I fasted and got into a hard history class that they said we had to take at our 3rd year and not before but probably after being okay... My friend did it the year before, and there were lots of kids asking questions in class. I didn't get any of the lecture and just didn't feel like reading it. In fact, I had not read a piece of history since age 11.
So, I found that if you sleep and don't skip meals, it will keep your metabolism going. The best time to not eat is when you're busy or relaxing. However, I just posted I had a snack when I woke up. Then, I stayed up and had breakfast. I got mad and bothered, though, I think, not sure, though. I'm bothered, now. Like, yesterday, my legs were a blimp flabbing. I've been having bacon and French toast for breakfast, bacon that's not that cooked ... and syrup on the French toast. Now, my legs are rubbery. I finally did some core workouts and need to do more soon. I took a break because my stomach was tight. Look on YouTube for free workout stations and just add situps, I guess. :| I have a nice video by Jillian Michaels, too, but it's not like out of the blue or something in a way.
So, I don't have anyone to compare to with where I'm from. People just say, oh your dad's from Pennsylvania and Southwestern New York State. I guess it makes people up north really mad they didn't move here. They were supposed to, really, before their kids were born. I go about Florida and get along and am even considered rather native to the area. Well, I guess I can connect to people from Florida, but it's kinda about connecting to your parents. I kinda like to be my own person. I guess you just have to ask me about my experiences in the world. I mean, I guess you like my parents, like to use them against me. I remember we thought we had a good culture but realized that we were like next in line but not as good as the Northeast. I think it was about how fair your mom was. My mom wasn't dark for her race, but she wasn't pasty. I think she was light tan. She's feminine and not like dilapidated. So, people in Florida are about how European they are. I used to walk around Southeastern Florida with my mom at night and in the day. My dad talked to me as a kid, too. I fail to see what is like so different about Lily Rose. It's more about not putting on a front at certain times. Nell Burton must be special, really. You know, I don't agree with denying what I've learned that doesn't have to do with more suburban areas. It's not always about doing unnecessary favors for others, and it's about slowing down and doing what's easiest. It's about family, too, and private time. I just have a window to the world. I like passing my parents in the hall every few days. I know my parents are mad I think about people who are nice to me but then don't like finish it off or are seldom personable to me because maybe I'm stand-off-ish. They keep this in. If Nell Burton lived in L.A., things would be different for her. She seems to have high self-esteem for being Jewish in how people hate Chinese. I just grew up denied being like Pennsylvania. I don't really have anything but my travels and varied heritage. I'm pretty Floridian, but my parents aren't from Florida. I don't know why you wouldn't be if you're from here.
Friday, November 23, 2012
STOP
Stop bringing up good and bad things together with clicks in my room.
WHAT IS EVERYONE'S PROBLEM I see?
They're bothering me.
WHAT IS EVERYONE'S PROBLEM I see?
They're bothering me.
Florida & L.A.
Things are going crazy with Florida and L.A. with people who are from other areas of the U.S. and who have immersed into Europe.
What I Had for Breakfast
The usual, French toast with syrup and about 5 strips of bacon not torn apart not cooked too long. 8*
Bothered 8|
My dad is bothering me. I went out to get more toilet paper and make breakfast. He sounded like I was bad because as a kid I have wined uncontrollably but not harshly, and my mom doesn't like it, for some reason.
You know, he keeps acting like I need to "be okay" with him and you know what that means.
You know, he keeps acting like I need to "be okay" with him and you know what that means.
Dream
I was in Australia, and everyone liked me for my mom's side and not my American side. An old lady followed me into the bathroom who was fat, and I saw myself. I looked different, in a bad way. She was rubbing my stomach from down to my crotch to under my breast over and over, and it was bad. I think I imagined myself hooking around my leg as I walked out of the bathroom.
I felt I was literally pushed to the side of my bed and then down to the floor twice by a fuzzy, strong matter.
I forget, now, but some other cool things happened.
There was a reason I kept falling.
Something else happened, I think, that seemed real.
I was in the kitchen and put down something loudly yet thought it wouldn't make a noise.
I was feeling for myself, like sorry for myself, for some reason, and this happened. There was some reason I was thrusted out of my bed.
I felt I was literally pushed to the side of my bed and then down to the floor twice by a fuzzy, strong matter.
I forget, now, but some other cool things happened.
There was a reason I kept falling.
Something else happened, I think, that seemed real.
I was in the kitchen and put down something loudly yet thought it wouldn't make a noise.
I was feeling for myself, like sorry for myself, for some reason, and this happened. There was some reason I was thrusted out of my bed.
Back to Bed
I guess I'll go back to bed, get up later and have breakfast. I slept a rather lot than usual without waking up in between. I was kinda tired, yesterday. I'm sad I was mad, recently, because people take it so seriously when I do because of weird things that happened. I'm feeling kinda tired in my head, but my body feels good. I don't feel as much pressure in my female parts, at the moment.
Good Night! 3)
Good Night! 3)
Dream
It's hard to remember so much of it, but I Was in a sorta big warehouse, gray room ballet class. I guess I was performing, and it was kinda easy, kinda hard, and I was able to execute the moves, in my dream. My friend was with me. My mom came. I think my brother was in it. I guess she brought 2 kids. 1 kid was Nell Burton looking kinda like my cousin. Except her eyes were a little more detailed in the flaps (when I woke up I thought of seeing an eye with sparkle protruding from the center strongly and was like no) and her skin was pretty flushed white. She was a little sarcastic but not in a mean way. I wanted to grab her. Her nails just had a little white and were kinda rounded, a bit thick of fingers, and wide but not really wide. So, I was swinging her fingers from the front row of some theater seats. It's hard to remember what was weird about the ballet. We went somewhere.
Dream
I was at a school of some sort, and I was gonna get food, but my meal plan wasn't working. I had some money. I was looking with a really fat boy about my age at an array of sweets around a shop.
I went back and got in after awhile and there were pre-made McDonald's orders and some thin pizza orders. I wanted to get a McDonald's one with an ice cream sundae.
Also, I was supposed to withdraw from a course I apparently hadn't really been to in my dream.
I went back and got in after awhile and there were pre-made McDonald's orders and some thin pizza orders. I wanted to get a McDonald's one with an ice cream sundae.
Also, I was supposed to withdraw from a course I apparently hadn't really been to in my dream.
Being a Good Citizen
What would say constitutes being a good citizen?
I felt like I was from Florida more than others because I was.
I wish I knew adults from Florida. I just knew that my aunt's husband is from Miami, and his parents are from I think Cleveland.
I don't really hang onto and publicize my parents. I grew up most strongly as a person, with roots as a younger girl, but also with more a stake in the oldest continuing city in the U.S., which is Hispanic and not Polish I think... not English..., and the New Orleans area, where I was foreign and didn't agree and abhorred it culturally and felt bad in it anyway. I totally was different just arriving. All my accomplishment. It was just inside me. I knew I could never be the same but maybe. I guess I have a hard time connecting to Ellen DeGeneres because she's such a historical figure, and my dad isn't from the South. With Britney Spears, I simply wasn't the one. I saw a girl from New Orleans who moved to L.A. on IMDb from a long time ago. I connected with her. People in Florida don't listen to me, but I like it when I go by them and sometimes they notice me. I didn't want them to, but they do.
I felt like I was from Florida more than others because I was.
I wish I knew adults from Florida. I just knew that my aunt's husband is from Miami, and his parents are from I think Cleveland.
I don't really hang onto and publicize my parents. I grew up most strongly as a person, with roots as a younger girl, but also with more a stake in the oldest continuing city in the U.S., which is Hispanic and not Polish I think... not English..., and the New Orleans area, where I was foreign and didn't agree and abhorred it culturally and felt bad in it anyway. I totally was different just arriving. All my accomplishment. It was just inside me. I knew I could never be the same but maybe. I guess I have a hard time connecting to Ellen DeGeneres because she's such a historical figure, and my dad isn't from the South. With Britney Spears, I simply wasn't the one. I saw a girl from New Orleans who moved to L.A. on IMDb from a long time ago. I connected with her. People in Florida don't listen to me, but I like it when I go by them and sometimes they notice me. I didn't want them to, but they do.
Knocked Up
So, why were we like knocked out to take life carelessly, like to read illegal books online, listen to free music. Not know about copyright laws in music and lose opportunities.
Buy store cars. Mess up online, delete pictures just because we think there'll be more like it. Get aggressive with racist people who knew you well. Lose everyone you knew because of some mistake you did, something you did that upset your parents and made those around you uncomfortable, the same, probably...
Not use money how you need. Do activities that don't really work out and are just there as filler.
Be tricked into doing too many courses in college, like you're not good enough doing just one thing but maybe it's possible to start another.
It seems these things all stuck with me. They only got worse as I did things online, and I don't know why. I know I had problems with those around me. It was more the way other people treated me, I thought, when good things happened to me because I wasn't perfect and people were really mean to me and didn't care and it really affected me and then I couldn't let go. People didn't want me to. No one will admit it, and no one cares. That's pretty messed up.
Please don't get mad at me for cursing on my blog. I did happen to be able to mark it as adult content and, anyway, chose that. As long as it's legal. I don't really curse.
Buy store cars. Mess up online, delete pictures just because we think there'll be more like it. Get aggressive with racist people who knew you well. Lose everyone you knew because of some mistake you did, something you did that upset your parents and made those around you uncomfortable, the same, probably...
Not use money how you need. Do activities that don't really work out and are just there as filler.
Be tricked into doing too many courses in college, like you're not good enough doing just one thing but maybe it's possible to start another.
It seems these things all stuck with me. They only got worse as I did things online, and I don't know why. I know I had problems with those around me. It was more the way other people treated me, I thought, when good things happened to me because I wasn't perfect and people were really mean to me and didn't care and it really affected me and then I couldn't let go. People didn't want me to. No one will admit it, and no one cares. That's pretty messed up.
Please don't get mad at me for cursing on my blog. I did happen to be able to mark it as adult content and, anyway, chose that. As long as it's legal. I don't really curse.
Hiding Out
It's funny how people all hide and then come out and insult you.
They have problems with how well they've taken care of themselves. They need more rest but not to like totally break down how I did and not take care of themselves.
They have problems with how well they've taken care of themselves. They need more rest but not to like totally break down how I did and not take care of themselves.
Looking up to My Parents
I was connected to my mom racially and in how I was treated in life. Then, I got like the suffering of my dad.
So, I've grown up respecting families of moms who were born earlier.
So, I've grown up respecting families of moms who were born earlier.
Meeting People
Isn't it neat to meet people from different walks of life? Like not just people who are like from your area. It's also nice to know people who have a set heritage, I suppose, or one totally different from your own.
Money
I wish I just lived life as I was supposed to and wasn't too tempted by opportunity, but I was. =| And it helped me. I found out how to experience a celestial life where things seemed magic and there were magical beings and the feeling of living forever, if only I could feel right moneywise... My life still is what it is. I'm not poor, and I'm having fun. I just have to cross some barriers. I turn a corner and regret things, big things. I lose opportunities. It seems me going to college was the problem because I lost money. I was told to take a long break.
Florida and L.A.
People in Florida used to be more like the Northeast yet essentially with the roots of Californians or people from the L.A. area or L.A. itself.
And I can't fight this feeling, anymore...
I am able to feel parts of my body like the inside of my nose, like feeling energy strong enough that feels like it materialized, and arms, and legs, and female parts. However, I feel affected, like people can control or knock|tap into these feelings.
Fame! I'm gonna live forever!
The best thing about fame around the internet is that you feel that you've done what you wanted and you're not like holding out nor making others hold out for you so much.
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