I wish I just lived life as I was supposed to and wasn't too tempted by opportunity, but I was. =| And it helped me. I found out how to experience a celestial life where things seemed magic and there were magical beings and the feeling of living forever, if only I could feel right moneywise... My life still is what it is. I'm not poor, and I'm having fun. I just have to cross some barriers. I turn a corner and regret things, big things. I lose opportunities. It seems me going to college was the problem because I lost money. I was told to take a long break.