So, something that has been bothering me was things I did that connect. I'm worried. Like, I posted myself in front of a lot of parked cars where we were. In my last YouTube videos, I looked like I had the illusion of lots of little dots on the side of my head, like they were wounds. I looked stitched together. I just realized about the movie Lilo & Stitch. Some people with tan skin look more stitched together like dolls. ... So, I got really upset. I had something coming to me, the umph to lead into cleaning my room, but it seemed to come to me after I got upset. I felt like other people were stimulated in a bad way but not like how I felt then. I just couldn't stop. I went out later to iron and couldn't control myself. I was so mad at how I felt all my life, especially when opportunity to feel good about myself in a new way was robbed. I think it's because something happened, the thing when I was 11 that's on my website.
So, I'm concerned about that and something else I thought that happened. It seems to have greatly affected others. So, I wanted to talk about it on my blog. I should probably make categories or something of interesting posts. So, I was in bed with the fear I'd turn into a bunch of little wounds. I was worried about my relationship with others.
Oh yes, I made a post on my website about when I get upset. I wasn't trying to hurt anyone. It was just like dealing with a mistake of my functioning or how I was functioning at the time. I don't know, but I think I'm getting over it but am sad this unfortunately happened.
Also, when I do something, other people get blamed. They do it to make a scene because they are hysterical they didn't do it. They just do it like animals without thinking like in a hoard.
So, I hope it gets better. That was really bad. Now, what will I think of my clean room? I figured it out. I changed blogs when I got mad, too, and it was a good move but not a glorious one.
So, I hope that this desists...